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Leave Your Weapons at the Door

One of the key elements of the parts work therapy that I do is understanding that all parts have my best interests at heart.  Each part, no matter how extreme, is working out of a deep-seated desire to help me be my best self.  And that’s a bit of a struggle to accept at times, … Continue reading

A Different Way to Handle Fear

I’ve read so much advice in the past about attacking or ignoring fear.  Treating it as though it’s straight from the devil or pushing past it willfully.  “Feel the fear and do it anyway,” always struck me as too simplistic, although perhaps I’m beginning to understand it.  I don’t know what works for others (and … Continue reading

Not Just Getting It Done

Today I have a lot of things I want to get done.  More, actually, than will reasonably fit on the list, so I’ve already been negotiating with myself what task level I’ll feel satisfied with and what will be considered bonus overtime (does anyone else do this?  Draw a line in between two tasks somewhere … Continue reading

When Manager Parts Storm the Castle

It’s official – my parts are messing with me.  Lately I’ve been hearing an endless litany of “You can’t do this,” and “You won’t be good at your next job,” and “There’s no hope of finding something you really love.”  Over and over, in an endless stream whenever I think about the job search.  It … Continue reading

Why I’m Done with ‘Should’

It’s interesting to me to hear people talk about words that they hate.  Most people seem to have an issue with moist (I don’t, but I get it).  Or overused buzzwords like synergy that sometimes seem to lose all meaning when spoken aloud. I have a deep, long-standing issue with the word should. Even writing … Continue reading

Changing the Pattern

It’s funny how what you really need will show up clearly if you just stay open to it.  When I was first planning this sabbatical, I would have told you that I wanted time off to write.  To try and sell my first book and to get started on the second.  And I have been … Continue reading

Love, Fear, and the One Who Chooses

I am love.  The aspect of me that is self-energy, that is my soul, that is connected to God is love.  In that place, I am love more than anything else.  That aspect is courageous and compassionate and creative, and all of it stems from love. I am fear.  Some parts of me are so … Continue reading

The Gremlins are Back

I officially left my “day job” a few weeks ago (two days before my 35th birthday) to go on a sabbatical with the intended purpose of writing, delving more deeply into myself, and figuring out what I want the next stage of my life to look like.  A friend of mine, who is a professional … Continue reading

The Charming Fable of Safety

Last year, I learned something scary. When I experience epiphany, it always seems to come in a lightning bolt of recognition: something previously unknown that is at once obvious and undeniable.  But usually when I look back I can see little elements of the idea trying to spring forth in my mind – small tests … Continue reading

Being Mine

You can’t keep me.  Only I can keep me.  And that’s both beautiful and terrifying. I am the possessor of my own soul and you can’t have a piece of me unless I say so.  I can choose to take me back anytime I want.