The Forest

I can’t see the trees for the forest.

I’ve always heard that saying the other way around.  But maybe there’s someone else who relates to it this way too.

My mind always seems to be working big-picture.  I want to publish a novel.  I want to lose 30 pounds.  I want to have an organized and well-put-together home.  And in my head, I can make lists and I know the things that go into achieving each of these desires.

But in my heart, a single workout doesn’t feel like it counts.  Or an hour cleaning out the closet.  Or another ten pages in the book.

I don’t know why I have such a hard time appreciating these small triumphs that directly contribute to the overall improvement in the areas I want to work on.  They just seem so small to me that I almost don’t even see them.

And what’s truly worse: I have a tendency to let that big goal really overwhelm me and end up feeling like I’m NEVER going to get there.  Let’s face it: these desires of mine are all rather long term and not the kind of thing that happens overnight.

But my attention span and my inner drive waxes and wanes overnight, cresting the rollercoaster with boundless enthusiasm and excitement for a project, only to sink into a trough of never-going-to-happen mere days later.

Because I don’t see the trees.  One single tree does not stand out to me as I am rushing by, trying to understand the whole forest.

I’m told that many people have issues seeing the big picture, but I get that just fine, right up here playing on a massive movie screen in my head.  But I’m ignoring all the little details, like individual pixels that all blend together into making that image whole.

I don’t really know how to fix this, but recently I’ve found that the first step towards changing anything about myself is to look it in the eye, call it what it is, and acknowledge that it exists and it’s something to be dealt with.  (Groundbreaking philosophy, I know.)

So, here’s hoping that now that I’ve recognized this issue at face value, new steps will start revealing themselves to me to start combating it.

Do you see things “big picture” or are you better at focusing on the details?

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2 thoughts on “The Forest

  1. I’m good at seeing the details needed for the big picture, but not good at executing them : ) Because you need all the details to make the big picture, and I get worn out trying to stay diligent.

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